Faded-Dreamer

Since I have been away from here my life has changed. My life has restructured itself in ways i would never have imagined it would. I have gotten married, then cheated on. I have lost and gained both friends and lovers. I have created a new life that depends on me deeply and I couldn't be happier, yet I'm not, happy that is. I feel as though there is a void that needs filling and I cant seem to fill it no matter what I do. Currently my thoughts float back to my friend who no longer speaks to me as I feel they would know what is wrong and what I should do to fix it. I spend a lot of time missing the past and I know that it's not good. My thou

so nervous and excited to see what working for usps will be like at the end of the month is like. new faces new work experience and finally after a long time mulah in my pocket ^.^ oh how i cant wait. i need to take up some creative writing classes i feel i have lost my muse or maybe she just walked away who knows what happened :p being at my aunt house is like a non stop circus by the time i get to sleep i am woken up by my cousins jumping and fighting atop of me and if i move to another room i have another cousin ready to wrestle with me as well ~.~ really missing my own bed right now. choices choices what to do what to do bleh so bored